Somewhere down in the middle I am sitting in the same train my father rode home from work every day for twenty-five years. I have been downtown with two fat girls. Several shameful nights in a darkened hotel room overlooking an alley. I'm in a transitional period, I told them.

No one speaks. In a seat across the aisle from me two women are facing one another, knitting a child from a skein of yarn. They work without looking up, the shiny flat caps of their needles circling above their hands, knees touching beneath the unformed torso that sags across them. I've made a promise to myself to begin praying again as soon as I'm not desperate. The older one has nearly finished the head, and I can hear the faint hives of language busy inside.